I’d light all your photographs on fire,
Break everything into prisms of light,
Just to feel your eyes on me again.
I’d destroy any evidence of you.
Tear up all the letters I ever wrote,
Delete every text message I ever sent,
Just to have the heat of your arms around me.
I’ll never again say your name in quite that way
With that involuntary rising inflection
That showcases all of my doubts
If it meant anything to you, I’d tell you the truth.
I’d give you everything I’m incapable of giving.
But the time for mutual trust is long gone,
And I know it wasn’t there to begin with.
I stare into the corners of the room,
Wonder when you’ll come down to me,
And see what I see in this world.
So, I promised you your complete destruction at my hands
Because the full realization of my inevitable cruelty
Was almost as bittersweet as the first kiss you gave,
Pressed possessively against the side of my throat.
Now, you’re finding peace in your pain,
And I’m finding solace in all the words
I never told you, all the hurtful things
That never escaped the prison of my mind.
We both know I’ve done more than enough to you.
And if the lies I breathed ever found their freedom,
You forgiveness would run free as well, and find a path
That would never lead back to me.